Saturday, September 20, 2008

A Day

just like any other. The sun is rising, casting its glow on the dew-covered ground. The butterflies are fluttering around the Lantana. Abby is demanding chocolate milk. J.T. has wormed his way into our bed. Sophie is scratching at the door, desperate for someone to come play with her. It is indeed a day like any other... except it isn't.

Today my calendar tells me it is September 20th. The truth is, I didn't need to look at the calendar to know that. Some dates are etched in your mind so deeply you know they are coming... months, weeks, before they arrive. Birthdays, Holidays and Anniversaries of the important people in your life. The day your brother died. Today is the third anniversary of the moment our lives were spun of course, shifted to a different path in life.

My heart feels physically heavy today. The roses are weighted by a night of dampness. They seem to echo the weight of my grief, the burden of sadness we bear. It will be a long day. There will be a lump in my throat, a shaking to my hands as I go about the business of my life today. But there will be family, friends and you, dear reader, to hold my hand. To hold my heart. To pull me, push me forward. To gently remind me to treasure the good, wrap myself in comfort and let the sadness come.

Thank you.


Danielle said...

I know you grieve and I have felt your pain.

I say: hold tight and bask in what is your memory and your connection to him.

Hard days.

Much loves and always loves.

You've been there for me for such a while now and I constantly check to make sure you're still coming with me. I hope you don't mind.

Hope you did ok today.


Michelly said...

I have but one sister and I cannot imagine my life without her. As children, teenagers and sometimes adults we fought like nobody's business but after working at a funeral home for 10 years I realize just how quickly life can change. She has become much more precious to me and now if we disagree I always make sure that it is resolved. I love her and she knows it.

I will be thinking of you and your family today and as I am spending the day with Beth. I will thank God that I have her because I know there are many people who wish they had their siblings with them.

Thank you for your post, sometimes we need to be reminded how lucky we are and how precious life is.

Anonymous said...

Hi Melinda
I hope your day was OK. They are tough sometimes, those days.

Stomper Girl said...

Sweetie, if I could reach across the earth and through the screen I WOULD hold your hand. Thinking of you.


Anonymous said...

Thinking of you, Melinda. No words, much thinking. x

M said...

It's a pity we can't all be there with you. I hope your day was bearable.

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Fairlie said...

Melinda, I am thinking of you. Anniversaries can be hard days to get through.

bluemountainsmary said...

I am sorry I have come to this so late.

You are in my arms in a big hug.

Love to you.

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